Angel (23.07.08)

She looks so sweet,
She tastes so fine
And she moves so well
That she must
Be my angel

Maybe she’s
Lost her way
And needs to find
Some place safe
She can call
Her home

She must be
My angel
As I know
A woman that fine
Can only
Be the work
Of a higher power

She is
My own
Slice of heaven,
An angel
From above

She moves
Like she’s flying
Towards me
And I get
So nervous
Her face has
Got me entranced

Up close
She is so fine
That I couldn’t
Bring her down
From her place
Among the angels

I can’t move,
I’m frozen
To the spot
Her face
Comes near
It’s a breath
Of fresh air
That thaws
Me out

She must be
My angel
As she lights
Up my day
With her smile
Now I wish
I’d met this angel

Just close your eyes
And call her angel
She will come
And she will
Taunt your dreams
And haunt your mind

Dear God,
Please send
Me an angel
As I can’t
Stand this
Earthly existence
Without one

Angel Of Death (30.07.08)

You are
An avenger,
A messenger
Of doom
You are
An angel
Of death
And I am
Marked for you

Don’t try
To save me
As I
Don’t need
To be saved
I’ve wasted
My life chasing
The angel
Of death

I’m willing
To embrace
My fate
So don’t
Try to
Stop me

You’ll regret crossing
The angel
Of death
If you try
And hide
From something
You can’t deny

You will stumble
And fall
Sooner rather
Than later
If the
Angel of death
Is after you

Darkness Comes (02.07.08)

Lying there shattered,
Bleeding and done
I couldn’t help
To think of you
And what we’ve done

There is
Some kind
Of darkness
That is
Creeping over to me
It makes me
Want to believe
There is
Something else
In this world
For me

I can’t stay here
Thinking about it
I can’t spend
Every last breath
I have left
Speaking about you

It’s not worth
The trouble
Of the cold,
Unforgiving floor
I lie on
To come
And tempt me

Lying here
Wasted as I am
Reminds me
Of your eyes
Which are as blue
As the sky afar
And your skin
Which now
Reminds me of
The white light
That should
Be coming
To get me
But instead
Darkness comes

The darkness comes
And embraces me
Like an old friend;
Long forgotten
And newly reappeared
And it’s like
Time never changed,
We just grew older
Waiting to meet again

The darkness comes
To take me
Away from you
I can’t fight it
‘Cause it’s
A part of me
And all I see
Is this darkness
That comes
For me

Do Some Damage (16.07.08)

I’d like to
Do some damage
To the party
Of people
That tried
To destroy me

Don’t you ever
Try to
Do some damage
To me again
As I’ll get you
And you’ll regret
Crossing me

I embrace
The darkness
As it’s my friend
When I go to
Do some damage

I like to do
Some damage
With you
To the authority
That controls us

Let’s grab
Some guns
And get
Some armour
And we’ll go
Do some damage

It’s your sanity
That’s at stake
So come
With me
And we’ll
Do some damage

Dream (23.07.08)

I dream
Of dark desires,
A dream
Of life
That nourishes me

Everybody dreams;
Some dream of wealth,
Some dream of cars
And others dream
Dark, dangerous dreams

You could die
Or sleep with
The world’s most
Beautiful woman
But yet
When you wake
Nothing has changed
Or happened

I dream
Of things
Too dangerous
To mention

Everybody dreams;
Some have purpose,
Some have a message
And others
Are of things
To come

Dream for
What good
It does you

Dying Or Presumed Dead (25.07.08)

If you can’t
Find me
By following
The signs
I left for you
Then I’m dying
Or to be
Presumed dead

The signs
I left for you
Are easy
To follow
If I’m living

If you don’t
Find me
Then I’m dying
Or presumed dead;
Killed off
By your stupidity
And inability
To function normally

If I don’t
Find myself
Then I’m
Lost forever
In this wilderness
Of my heart
And since
I’m lost
Presume me dead
Or I should
Be dying

If you can’t
Find me
And save me
Then I’m dying
To be presumed dead

Expressionless (23.07.08)

I sat there
Next to you
Expressionless
As your voice
Whisked me away
To the place
I’d rather be

You suck
All feelings
From me
Everytime you
Look at me

Dulled and senseless
I can’t feel
My emotions
As my face
Is held expressionless
By you

I’m going on
Without you
And the bad stuff
In my life
But it comes
With a catch;
I’m expressionless

I smile
And I laugh
So silently
Next to you
As you have
Made me expressionless

I Feel Like I Want To Die (13.07.08)

Rejection is the worst pain
I’ve ever felt
And I’ve been
Through it all;
I’ve been
To the bottom
Of that
Black pit
They call
My soul

I feel like
I want to die
‘Cause I can’t stand
This pain
In my heart;
Rejection tore me asunder
And opened
My heart
To a pained world

Can it get
Any better
For me?
I feel
Like running
But there is
Nowhere to
Run to

I’m drowning
In my own sorrow
And I try
To escape
But I’m in quicksand
So every time
I try to
Get free
I get
Held back

Seeing you everyday
I still feel like
I want to die
‘Cause you set
My world
In motion
And without
I feel like
I want to die

I Get Horny Baby (26.07.08)

I get horny baby
Just like you
When you don’t
Get horny
For me
I start to weep

No-one
Will believe
A single word
I say
When I get horny
For you baby

Take off
Your clothes
Or keep
Them on
And I still
Get horny baby

There’s sex
In the air
And we
Get lifted
By the sounds

I tell ya
I get horny baby
When you walk
Right past me
In that
Little black dress;
It reveals nothing
But says everything
About you
And it makes
Me horny

I Want You But I Can't Have You (03.07.08)

I can’t stand
To sleep alone
But I can’t stand
To have you
Warming my sheets either

I want your love
But I can’t
Have it;
I’m too corrupted
To enjoy you
So live
Your life alone

It’s too hot
Having you
Next to me
But when you
Aren’t there
The nights are
Colder and longer

I’m burning up inside
With the thought
Of your embrace
Which turns so cold
Every time
I remember
I want you but
Can’t have you

I can still
Taste you
On my lips
Once the taste
Was so sweet
But now
It’s too sour
To savour

Left here
All alone
My heart
Stops beating
Everytime
I am reminded
Of you

You’re a piece
Of a puzzle
That’s supposed to fit,
Making me whole
But it doesn’t
Want to join up

It’s too painful
To try to
Remember
That we were
Once together
Long ago
My heart
Was shattered
When you left

As I am
Lying in bed
Thinking about you
I realise
I still want you
But I can
Never have you

I Won't Die (31.07.08)

I won’t die
Just to
Please you

I won’t die
Just to
Let you win
An unfair game

I will survive
All you
Throw at me
Because
I won’t die

Call me crazy
But I won’t die
Just to
Let you win

You feel
So damaged
And you
Bottle it up
To release
Upon me

Your rage
Can’t kill me
Your love
Can’t harm me
And your heart
Can’t beat
For me
As I
Won’t die
For you

If You Still Love Me (16.07.08)

If you still
Love me
You’d come
And see me
As I’m
Lying here
Thinking about you
Just wait
And see
If you still love me

I don’t know
What to do
To take you back
When I don’t
Even know who
I’m taking you to

I know
You feel betrayed
By me
But only
If you see
That I’m tryin’
To make it better
For you

If you still
Love me
You’d comfort me
Right now
And tell me
I’m forgiven
For what I did
To hide
My true feelings
For you

I can do
No wrong
If you only
Say you
Still love me

It Isn't Easy, But It Isn't Hard Either (09.07.08)

It isn’t easy
Having your
Heart ripped out
But it isn’t
Hard either
Being on the outside
With you inside

Life isn’t easy
‘Cause of love,
Money and war
But it is not
As if it’s
Hard either
You just gotta learn
How to live
In duality

Don’t blame life
For setting you
A seemingly
Impossible task
‘Cause if you do
Easier tasks
That surround it
You will learn
To master it

Everybody is challenged
In their life
Whether it be a
Moral, ethical,
Spiritual, physical,
Emotional or
Mental challenges

You think
You have it hard
Then look
In Africa

It's All My Fault (But It Should Be Yours) (06.07.08)

Everything bad
In my life
Was all my fault
Never yours;
I pushed
You away
Even though
I knew
You’d come back
Begging for more

Pinch me
‘Cause I must
Be dreaming
Not to embrace you;
I want to be
Warm in your arms
But my body
Wants to be cold

It’s something unpredictable
And overall wrong
For me
Not to like you;
You are just
My type
And I’m attracted
To you
But something
Keeps repulsing me

It feels like
There is
A barrier
Protecting your heart
From love
Everything you want
To feel
Is just
Reflected away
Just ‘cause
You don’t
Wanna feel
Or experience anything
For fear
Of the world

It is all
My fault
But it should
Be yours;
You fought
Even after
The end
Of our relationship

It's Not My Time (07.07.08)

The fire burning
In your heart
Can’t consume me
‘Cause it’s not
My time to go

It seems unfair
That you can win
So easily
I am a tough nut
But with a wink
I was by
Your side

It’s not my time
To be
Repairing the road
You walk down
Repeatedly
Grinding your enemies
Into the dirt

I’ve got
My own life
To live
Without living
Yours as well
You should know
It’s not my time
To be in love
This should be
The end
Of you and me
But
It’s not my time

It’s not my time
For me to be
Leaving you
‘Cause that would be
The end of me
And it’s
Not my time
To be leaving
Without leaving a mark
For you and me

Leave Me Alone (Somebody Like You) (24.07.08)

Leave me alone,
I don’t deserve
This shit
From somebody
Like you

Someone like you
Couldn’t fuck
Me up
Even if they tried,
Leave me alone
‘Cause I don’t
Want somebody
Like you
Near me

Somebody like you
Should just
Leave me alone,
If they knew
What was
Best for them

Leave me alone
Otherwise I’ll
Hunt you down
And put
A bullet
In your head

Somebody like you
Is better off dead,
If not
Just leave
Me alone
To live
As I please

Love And Fire (01.07.08)

The fiery love
That I used
To share
With you
Is now gone
And it has
Been replaced
With a
Calming feeling
Of a fading friendship

I might as
Well of
Suffered a heart attack
And died
Because to you
It is as if
I never existed

This love
Has got me
Burning up inside;
My heart
Feels like
Slowing the burning
But the fire
Is reignited by you
Everytime you leave me

The flames
Are arising
Fanning the fire
In my soul
But yet
Nothing was burning

You leaving me
Was the match
To the kindling
In my heart
But when
You were
With me
You calmed
The fire

When we were together
It was like
A clash of
Thunder and lightning;
Two different forces
Meeting in
An unmutable
Clash of power;
We were different
Yet the same,
Joined together
For a common cause

Nobody Loves Me (23.07.08)

I toss and turn
I can’t sleep at night
When I’m
Thinking of you
Once I ran to you
Now I run from you
And as I run
I realise
Nobody loves me

I’m turning my head,
I turn too fast
And the world
Is spinning,
Just like my life
Its spinning
Out of control
‘Cause nobody
Loves me

I’m sitting here
Writing this song
And I realise
Nothing affects me
Any more
‘Cause of you

If you don’t
Love me
Then nobody
In the world
Loves me…
At all

I feel like
Ending it all
But there’s
Too much
To live for

The wind
Feels nice
Against my face
As I’m standing
On the bridge
Where we met
I try to
Come down
But I’m falling,
Falling too fast
For you
To catch me

I grow my wings
And fly away
From the place
Where nobody loves me

Nobody, Somebody, Anybody (23.07.08)

This guy
I once knew
Started out
As a nobody
Grew up
To be somebody
Worth caring for
And died
Just another
Lonely person
Like everybody
In this world

He wasn’t big
Or strong
But he was smart
And worked hard
Just to make
A living

He live on beans
And worked
For peanuts
But then
Just the other day
He became somebody

He tried,
He cried
And would have died
If it wasn’t
For the love
He won
From everybody

He conquered
The people’s hearts
With his words
And mocked them
With his actions

Even though
He was popular
With everybody
When he died
From exhaustion
Nobody except
The only somebody
He could call
A friend attended

Not The Same Old Story (19.07.08)

It started out
With the same
Old story
A guy and
A girl
Fell in love
With each other
And planned to marry
One day

That all changed
When she met me
By chance
At a coffee shop
It was love
At first sight

The more she
Saw of me
The more she
Wanted me
But she knew
She was committed
To the same
Old story

She didn’t want
To hurt him
By being
With me
But she didn’t
Want to stay
With him either

It’s not the same
Old story
She couldn’t pick
Between us two
So she went off
To a foreign country
There she met
The guy
Of her dreams

That’s the end
Of the story
That started out
The same
And finished differently
This story ending
Like it did
Did nothing good
For our hearts

Somebody Must Love Me (23.07.08)

I don’t know when
My life changed
But it must
Of been
While I was sleeping
Otherwise I would of
Noticed the change

I realised
Just the other day
That somebody
Must love me
As I haven’t
Met a girl
That truly
Loves me

I woke up
In the middle
Of the night
And found you
Sleeping next to me
So I
Pinched myself
Just to
Make sure
And I was dreamin’
About somebody
Loving me

I open
My eyes
To a world
So bright
And I see
Somebody must
Love me

Jointly
Everybody agrees
Somebody must
Love me
As there
Is love
For everyone
In the world

Tears (02.07.08)

The sky today
Is the colour
Of your tears
That I saw yesterday

I wonder how
You could cry
So blue
When all I know
You could cry
Was those
Clear tears
That we see
Each and every day

The tears
Streaming down
Your face
Remind me
Of the time
We spent together
As high as
The birds
In the sky

It seems like
We shared
A moment
That could
Last forever
But it would
Only last
Until we parted

Those beautiful tears
Tell a story
When cried
From your
Beautiful face;
I could tell
That you were sad
And longed
For someone
To dry those tears

As much as
It pains
I really
Must not cry
For you
Those sweet tears
You are crying
When love
Broke your heart

Tears of fear,
Tear of rage,
Tears of sadness
And tears of joy
Created those tears
I saw you crying
When I left you
With your eyes
Full of tears

The Music (24.07.08)

That sweet sound
It moves the crowd
It grows so loud
To the joy
Of the crowd

The music
Rocks the stadium,
It’s so loud
That the ground
Is shaking
Feels like
The Earth
Is breaking

We get caught up
In the music
And the moment
We want to
Never let it go

The music
Is played
To entertain
The masses
And if it
Rocks out
It’s better

Hands are soaring,
Ears are bursting,
And throats are raw
But the music
Won’t stop
For anyone

The Situation Goes Nowhere (29.07.08)

“There is
A robbery
At the bank
All units respond”

The police
Take up
Their positions
And the
Situation goes nowhere

There’s a guy
With a gun
He starts firin’
And the police
Shoot him
And the situation
Has gone nowhere

The thieves
In the bank
Don’t care
If they are stuck
In the bank
‘Cause the situation
Goes nowhere

Bullets are exchanged
And the body count
Keeps risin’
And still
The situation
Goes nowhere

They send
In SWAT
And pump them
Full of lead
And the situation
Is solved

Trapped In Something (I Can't Get Out) (0.1.07.08)

I left
Too long ago
To remember
But it is as if
I never left;
Nothing has changed
And everything
Has stayed the same

I’ve travelled
May different roads
But somehow
I end up
On the same on
I left on
All those
Painful years ago

There has been
Many roads
Leading in
Many different directions
But somehow
They all lead
In the same direction;
I’m trapped
In something
I can’t get out of

I’m always
In the same gear
Even though
I’m trying to change
It’s like
Being stuck
In one of
Your best memories
(You want to
Keep reliving it)
That have gone
Horribly wrong
(Like a nightmare)

Treasure Hunters (23.07.08)

We were seeking
Fortune and glory,
Chasing ghosts
And facing fears,
Confronting all evils
With a word

We weren’t thieves
And we aren’t honourable,
We are downright bastards,
Cheat all those
Who challenge us
Out of a prize

We are
Treasure hunters
Seeking fortune
And glory
We dream
For a dream
Of recognition
And a road
To eventual fame

We treasure hunters
Lie, cheat and steal
Just to save
An artefact
Or relic
Of the past
From destruction

It will never happen
That we be recognised
For our conquests
But we still
Have the glory
Of being
Treasure hunters

Two Opposites Of The Same Love (07.07.08)

We were joined
The moment
We met,
Two opposites
Of the same love

We share a beat
That made
Us dance;
I did the quickstep
And you did break dancing
But yet
They were the same
When we came
For the tango

I loved violence
And you loved peace
Together
We always fought
To a stalemate
We were
Two opposites
Of the same love

I was fire
And you were water;
I ignited
Your passion
And you doused
The fire burning
In my heart

It was random
And it was cool
Two opposites
Of the same love
Meeting by chance
And sharing something
So special

Wear Your Shame (25.07.08)

The sky is dark
With rain
So come out
And wear
Your shame

You don’t
Have to care
If other people
Hear that
You are
Out there

There’s no shame
In coming out
And unburdening yourself
Of your problems
And people
Will thank you
For being alone
In your struggle

Come out
And wear
Your shame
You shouldn’t care
If the people
Think it’s
A game
So just
Wear your shame

Who cares
If you’re late
To wear
Your shame
You’ll still
Be the first
To wear
Your shame

You should
Wear your shame
Like its
A badge
Of honour
That you deserve

Whatever Tomorrow Brings (23.07.08)

I’ll be there
No matter what
Tomorrow brings
For me and you

The storms
Can come
And wash
Me away
But I know
Whatever
Tomorrow brings
I’ll be there
For you and me

Don’t cry
Waiting for me
You stay there
‘Cause I know
Whatever tomorrow brings
I’ll be there
To wipe your
Teary eyes

No matter what
The future holds
I’ll stay
With you
‘Cause I know
Whatever tomorrow brings
I’ll still
Love you

Don’t cry
I know
I maybe
Just a memory
But I know
Whatever tomorrow brings
I’ll be there
To comfort you

If tomorrow
Never comes
I’ll stay
With you
For all of time

While I'm Down (30.07.08)

Dead broke,
I’m yours
Get me
A job
And take off
Your clothes,
Even in
The dark
I see you
For what
You are

Punch my
Lights out
And I’ll feel
Much better
Sleeping
On your floor,
I don’t care
If you
Kick me
While I’m down

Kick me
While I’m down
And I’ll just
Get back up
Just to
Go through
All the
Pain again

I know
You don’t
Like me
For what
I am
But I’m
Still mortal
And I
Make mistakes
Just like you

You say
You don’t care
But I know
You still
Love me

I must
Be dreaming
Not to
Get up
After you
Kicked me down
But I just
Don’t wanna feel
The pain
In my heart

It’s cool
If you don’t
Come home
Again ‘cause
I know
I’ve been
Too hard
On you

Punch my
Lights out
And let
Me go
After you
Once you’re gone

Why Save The World? (06.07.08)

Why save the world
When the people
Who try to
Save the world
Are relegated
To the back seat?

The world is doomed
To be
Crushed beneath
An almighty force
That we can’t control
We deserved
To be crushed
Any way for
The way we
Treat our
Natural surroundings

Why save the world
When the people
Who try to
Save the world
Are relegated
To the back seat?

Why save the world
When the world
Is doomed any way?
Nature plots and plans
Our destruction
Yet it can’t
Help it;
It is not evil
But just is there
As much of
As a part of us
As love is

You Knew (04.07.08)

Whenever I was in pain
You knew too much
And assumed too little
As I was
Only in pain
When you
Were around

It was too hard
To live a life
With you around
Always in my face

Somehow
You always
Make it up
To me
And I can’t
Run from you

It’s powerful
And nerve racking
To have you
In the
Driver’s seat
During the
Darkest of my day

I don’t want you
But I need you
To comfort me
For all of time
Don’t make this
Hard on me

I was in love
With you
As you knew
You were
The object
Of my affections

You knew
That I loved you
But you knew
That I couldn’t
Stand you either
It pained me
To try to
Love me

Your Heart Breaking (03.07.08)

I’m not changing
Even though
I knew
Your heart was breaking
Loving you
Couldn’t change me

God must of
Fucked up
When he was
Making me
Because if love
Couldn’t change me
Nothing will

Your heart breaking
Was the best thing
That ever
Happened to me
As I have been
Freed from a love
That imprisoned me

Your heart
Was breaking
Right in front of me
And I didn’t
Even care
Your heart
Is now worthless
After I broke it

I had seen better
And fared worse
Before I met you
So the sound
Of your heart breaking
Was music
To my ears

It’s good not
To be in pain
Everywhere I go
Since I left you
In pain
And with a
Broken heart
So just
Shut your mouth
And silently
Scream in pain